Kissing My Friend

by Selena
(USA)

I had a dream recently that has gotten me confused and really perplexed by it. It started out with me talking to a couple of boys on different bus rides home, starting with one at the front seat and each and every time I moved further back I had more boys join me until I was in one of the back seats of the school bus talking to these nameless faces and the boy who was sitting besides me was another person I knew from my actual school but I didn't talk to much. Take note that I didn't usually take bus rides home with these nameless faces. Outside looked very dark too... Like the who dream took place during the night and usually when I take bus rides home during the night are from marching band competitions. So I was taking to this group of boys when unknowingly a friend of mine who didn't go to school for the last few months of school got on and grabbed the back of my head and pulled me towards him into a force kiss. At first I tried pushing away but then he stuck his tongue into my mouth and I didn't want to stop. Occastionally I would fight back and pull my head back but with my head in his hand I couldn't. After a few seconds I finally pushed him away and wiped my mouth, panting as I asked him why he had done what he did. He looked mad at me and said with a blush, "BecauseI liked you! I liked you and then I hear that you've been talking to other boys?!" He swung his hand around as if he were presenting all the boys I had talked with, "I care about you and I really like you! I... I'm just done." He got off the bus and I went after him and caught up with him, asking him to talk to me but he wouldn't talk to me. I met up with a couple of my friends and they managed to stop him long enough for us to make a bet that if I got into this sort of fight and I didn't get hit then he had to talk to me again. Whe did the bet and I won and when all of us started to celebrate he chuckled and walked off, into his mothers car and they drove off. Defeated I got into my mother's car and then we headed home. After that I dreamt that I was in this large unrecognizable home and then that me and a couple of friends we going to be in a soccer game. This friend of mine showed up again and he was still ignoring me, plus he was the captian. My face and his face were both unreckognizable to me and then we started to train. After that I don't remember much but waking up in the middle of the soccer game that had different teams. See I wouldn't understand why my friend would kiss me like that, and above all the kiss felt so real even if I've never been kissed or have kissed anyone like that in reality. I used to like him, but I still care about him as a friend and I even talked ot him after a month or two of not seeing him at school only to find out he was being home schooled the last few months. Something was going on but he refused to tell me and told me not to tell anyone that I had seen him. I had told him everything about me at a football game once since we are both in marching band and spent most of out time lost together at disneyworld on a band trip last year. He even pushed me in my wheel chair when my feet had sprained muscles and I couldn't walk fast after our group had ditched me, he stayed behind. He is a good friend, but I don't like him that way anymore... And he would never do something like he had in my dream! What does this mean? I don't remember anything recent that would have triggered this and the last time I saw him was a good two or three months ago. Also, why did the kiss feel so real?